WOW GOD!!!

So there's a lot that's been happening lately that i feel like sharing and that's been affecting me
i start of by last week Friday.

Friday is the day we normally do our prayer walk and Joanne Li was leading. It was different this time because she felt like she was being called to Kent st. we had no idea whee this place was so went to look it up and found out its in new market. when we had all decided to go and gather there we found this building Joanne had in her vision. stuck out like a sore thumb from the business district it was in. it was a pretty unorganised prayer walk this time as people were feeling disjointed to this building and ill be honest it was a cold and miserable night. most of us had prayer over this building and some of us touched it but weird things started to happen later in the night. Lee started getting sick but he was wearing adequate clothing. i felt a chill in my heart when i placed my hand on the building to pray for it. also later that evening pearl was praying in tongues and started freaking out as she had felt a evil spirit in the area draw even closer and closer to us and was told we had to go. later that night mike was unprepared for what was going to happen as he had a spiritual attack and broke down. he had felt like his heart had been ripped out and lost a lot of his connection with god. i know from this experience that god is real! the spiritual world is real and there is mass spiritual warfare going on. to not choose a side is choosing a side. i wanna be on the right side that is with god. i also learnt from this experience to ensure my foundations with god is secure and rock solid because if there is any waver in my faith i know that's when Satan will attack me.

weds
on weds i had decided to take up my cross that day and take up mikes advice and listen and talk to god and be honest with him and let him know how i felt. this really let me be free and felt like the burden of trying to live a life holy for the lord was just a act of the law and i was kidding myself. in fact that i should be doing it for love instead of duty which is what i have been doing. i only did pray that my love for him would grow as i gotten to know him more. :) i then decided to read Galatians 3 and wow did Paul's letter hit home. it was pretty much just everything i was praying about and i had felt as if god had spoken to me saying "son don't be foolish i love you for who you are, i have given you my love and because i love you so much i forgive you with my grace" wow such an undeserving gift but reminded me GOD IS GOOD. However i did have to go to uni that night and normally that wouldn't be a problem except that i had to read photography books as part of the class activity. we had access to the library and flicking through some of the books a lot of it showed a lot of male and female nudity. i even came across a pornographic photography one. it disturbed me a lot as i had felt i had gotten my relationship with Jesus a lot stronger that day and i had to see that. i felt so sinful just my eyes being tainted by the images. i also felt like i needed to pray for the campus and photographers as that's what some people get into and it shows how away from god some people are. it really did question why i wanted to be a photographer if i maybe be exposed to things like this.

Thursday
today i woke up with some unfortunate event of my grand dad having a stroke. i rushed to my aunties to find granddad on the ground with paramedics around. i found that my granddad had gone to the loo that day and found blood coming out from when he "dropped the kids off". He then went to sit in the living room and feeling faint he collapsed of the chair and had not enough energy to get back up. It was weird because on the way there i had felt calm and just secure enough to know that MY LORD is sovereign and in con troll of all this. felt amazing knowing that and gave me a sense of peace no matter what would happen however i did feel this urgency as my grand dad did not really know who Christ Jesus is. IO had been asked by the paramedics to go to the hospital with them in the ambulance and so i grabbed my bible and did. poor granddad was constipated and had to have 3 rectum examinations. all 3 didn't sound good. however i was there and i had brought the word with me to ensure that i keep in touch with god. i read numbers 27 and that passage just really spoke to me as that god doesn't pass one persons sin from one person to another. its not like karma. god loves each one of us and will give accordingly and from that i learnt even More of gods sovereignty and love and just let me put my trust in my lord more. i also read proverbs 14.5 "A truthful witness does not deceive, but a false witness pours out lies." This kinda spoke to me and questioned me what sort of witness am i?
also while at the hospital i was attracted to all the nurses there. not physically (well some were good looking but that's not what i mean) but my heart went for them as they were here serving people and looking and caring for people. wow it really touched me and thought its amazing how people can really care even if its just a job. i also had my little cousin Andrew identify me with my bible. he started asking questions about who Satan was and i ended up telling him the story of Adam and eve. he was astonished to find out about Satan the serpent and the apple of knowledge and that eve ate it first. what really encourage me is that he was asking about it so much with his curious mind. He even asked "do you think this is better than what we believe in"(We being the rest of my family) and i replied "yes i believe so".

wow its just a long journey with god and there's so much more i wanna find out about him
hopefully i can post More about him up on here.
until next time
chow.

recapping

wow its been a while since Ive blogged.
well over the holidays Ive been at NRC in willow park. its been an awesome as experience meeting many people of the same faith and just growing in the word of Jesus.

We had Nigel Pollock who is head of tscf come speak to us about "the average Joe". this story is re voled around young Joseph in the old test. it was very inspiring as we went through the story of his life and how he reflected on his actions. it really challenged me as to how i reflect my actions onto others such as

• am i humble to others?
• If i have the chance to be merciful, will i and give them grace?
• how does god work through my life?
• do i give 100% in what ever i do thus glorifying god?
• do i twit or show that im a christian?
• am i afraid of the gospel that i love?
• is what i listen to coherent with what i believe?

During this camp we also had Andy Shuddle come talk to us about sexuality. it was just as impacting as much as the first time i read all these things in a book called every young mans battle. we talked about

• sex
• masturbation
• pornography
• homosexuality

these are all important issues that needs to be addressed in every Christian. We all go through the same challenges as every human yet sometimes we just cave into sin. Sex is a very strong topic discussed and i had learnt "YES" GOD does want us to have sex, but with the right person and after marriage. Personally myself im very sexually active which im trying to become more dormant about and to me this is really hard for me as a male to control sometimes. so it challenges me to be more pure for god.

Masturbation is typically well common now days as sex is very now accepted by modern society. my question to you is "Do YOU need to masturbate and if so why?" Sure being celibate is hard and sure masturbation can give you that quick release that you crave but is it actually doing you any good in your relationship with god? just remember he's watch us as we do everything and including this. Masturbation is just a way of pleasuring ourselves for that quick release and that small closer and closeness of intimacy that we temporary get. truth is its only temporary and is completely different from what sex and the real intimacy with a loving partner provides.

Pornography is mostly accepted in society today as well. I guess this is due to More music video clips becoming more reveling and with the fashion industry changing their tastes to become more raunchier and more hormone lead for the younger teen viewers who look up to these idols. its so inter grated into society that it has now been accepted by every young man or women, that they maybe able to be picked up at a park or have the pizza boy/ girl come onto you. Does this disturb you that people believe fantasies as such can come true? Its because the sin in pornogrpahy allows you to fantasies about any girl you want to do any action you want to you. Do you know that people get addicted to this stuff? people who surf the web just for their ideal dream girl or just to see females naked and guess what? this is a common problem as well. people get trapped in this vicious cycle of sin and they find themselves drawing further and further away from god. it's also bad because people end up idolising these people who get to have sex with all these women. just think about what your future wife will say? does that convict you if she knew you were having sex with all these people?

Homosexuality is a hard topic to talk about. this is pretty hard for me as my brother is bisexual. If you think of it logically god made males and females to complement each other. we have penises that fit into the females vagina which helps us reproduce and make earth plentiful. homosexuality defiles this as you aren't able to give birth as god did not put that system into our male bodies and also god made us man and women for a reason.

from camp i surely did learn alot and it did leave me questioning myself what do i do for god and how do i glorify him in everything i do?