lost and found inspiration

To those reading this
wow this is going to be my first blog on here. Scary, lets hope i can keep it up. I think im doing it because very one else is journaling or blogging for some reason. i wanna fit in... hmmm.
Anyways this blog will mainly focus on me and god and hopefully i can always look back on what i have learned.

This morning i woke up surprisingly early finding myself unable to go back to bed. After having a thrilling day at work yesterday on a couples date and an awesome as dinner served and cooked by the lovely hands of Suey and Pearl there was not much i could ask for. I ended up reading along with my audio version of 2nd timothy chapters 1-3. i find the audio version helps but after going through it thinking back now. i don't remember a thing from this morning. kinda shows maybe i should concentrate harder.

Lord i thank you for the use of technology, to have availability to be able to listen to your word. to have the access of internet to research questions we don't know about you lord. father i thank you for the amazing days that you have gifted us with and the amazing creation you have crafted. Beauty is everywhere in every shape and form i see in my eyes. Lord thank you for my blessed friends and especially for my love Suey that motivates me to look towards your word and helps me grow. In your name i pray, Amen.

I ended up with a girl called Jenny today on the powersurge. became rather interesting as i came to find out her views on what Christianity was and what she believed god to be and what she thought. i still find it hard and funny that Christians get the stereotype of always being good and having that invisible gold halo above our heads as if we have never done anything bad and when we do its the worst of worst. its hard sometimes to break this stereotype but they have to know were people too. we have the same needs and the same urges, not to forget everybody has a past so yet no body is perfect. My buddy found it hard to believe that i had a past and that as a Christian i struggle with urges as well. if only we could just break this stereotype by just spreading love of Jesus everywhere then the world would be a better place. i was surprised to find out that she herself believed in god. however the most surprising bit was she didn't really know who the god she believed in was. makes me think back to the book of acts (acts 17) when paul had been in athens and seen the inscriptions "to an unknown god". she knew of who Chirst Jesus was but didn't know of the holy spirit. She told me she had been to a Christian fellowship in 3rd and 4th form but had stopped. i ended up trying to explain the bible from adam and eve, Noah, moses, prophets and then Jesus in 8 mins. that was a challenge. Jenny is a kind girl i know because of the way she acts eg offering strangers rides and sticking up for people. shes afraid of the revolution day of when the end of the world comes. shes also afraid to call her self a Christian altho she is a believer of Jesus but is not a disciple as she is nto ready to give herself fully over to Christ as she finds it easier to live a life in sin.

Dear lord. i pray for my sister Jenny so that she is able to get to know you lord and to make the ultimate decision of following you. father i pray that you soften her heart and raise questions in her mind about who you are and why you have come to save us. lord i i pray that you give her plenty of opportunities to be exposed to Christians and so she can see what it is to follow you father and also that if it is your will that you open doors for her and let her eyes see you. father i pray that not just by me but also by others your work in her will be done and that some day someone will be able to reap the seeds that i and others have sowed in her in the glory of your name. i pray that she comes to you truthfully and seekingly and she will touch others around her which will help us grow your kingdom. in Jesus name i pray. Amen.


I also went to church today in the new building site. Was awesome as it reminded me of my old church Life. oh how i miss it. i was inspired by the pastor today with his talk of integrity. to always live a life of a Christian as Jesus would, as that way it would comfortably become our new lifestyle by helping others and it would just be a habit for us to help. really made me think of how i fall short of gods glory and how much i need grace to be saved. it also let me realize of what else i can accomplish in the glory of the lord to help others such as giving(one of my gifts).

This evening i had gone to the airport to pick up Michael. he had left on Friday for a conference and i had been praying that the conference would set him on fire for god and that he would grow. boy did he!!!! tonight he has really inspired me to really refresh myself in the word each day and die to the lord each day. he taught me about manifestation, the greatest commission and our mission as a Christian. to save others. he also taught me that i could be cleanse daily and that in the dark thats when the light shines. us as Christians we are the light of the world where this world is fallen to sin and darkness. however being in darkness we have to be careful not to lose fire for the lord by being native and going back to living a "normal" life. really we should be running our race at our own pace so the fire in our hearts for the lord retains a constant pace and doesn't die. thank you so much mike for being such an inspiration to me. just as i was losing direction u really hit home as to how much i really have to learn about the lord. thanks buddy may your fire never die and the holy spirit in u over flows with joy to those around u.

H evenly father i thank you for my brother Michael here with me today as i am able to sit down and be told of the work that you have done through him at conference . Thank you father for listening to my prayers of him growing and with the possibility of him steeping up to the plate as a leader as he gowns and matures in you lord. thank you for the blessings you have given me lord, i am so under serving of my friends and the grace and love that you have given me. father i pray for those around me and actually those in general that don't know you yet lord. i pray the holy spirit fills them up with love and softens there hearts opens their eyes so they can see the amazing love and gift that you have bestowed upon us. father i pray that you give me a burning desire to do your work lord, that your will is able to be done through me as my body is now a vessel for your spirit. father pray that you give me courage to speak your words and share the good news with anyone and everyone i meet. i pray that you can give me confidence to be more like you lord and that you use my skills and talents to reach and talk to those who may seen unreachable so that i may shine my light on their darkness and help them see the light through you lord. i pray that this burning desire never dies and that i am able to hear your call to me daily father and remember that i am dead to sin if i live my life for myself. i am alive through you if i live my life for you father doing your work and i pray that you constantly remind me of the struggles ive been through and you work in my heart to keep me from my earthly struggles and temptations and urges. lord i hand over to you my life and i pray that you use it to your will and that everything done through me will be done in the glory of your name. thank you for everything you do for me lord, you give me food shelter and your word. i do not need more lord but i do pray for my fellow brothers and sisters to stay strong and firm in you. i really pray for our loved ones to know you and our friends to know you. father i know it will happen all in your time but lord i pray they may accept you before you come and are once again seated at the utmost highest throne. Lord may everything done be in your glory and if i am every lead astray that you chase me along like a Shepard and a lamb so that i may return to your flock. in your glorious name Jesus i pray. Amen.